Nah man don't compare yourself to others or minimize your experience. I grew up in a similar situation. It sucks. Your role models are all messed up. Your normal is not really normal as they say. But now you know a reason why relationships may be difficult for you and now you can actively work on them. You can choose to be different and who you want to be with. It takes a lot of work but it's worth it. It's good that you recognize it for what it was. A lot of people don't get there. Some of us repeat the same patterns.