What you sound to me is lonely. I say that not to be flip, but trying to create something on your own is exponentially harder than doing it alongside a partner. My 2¢: throw yourself into work at your company. Learn as much as you can. Meet colleagues. Make friends. Don’t see it as the place you’ll be forever, but as a place you can build resources. Hang our outside of work with the colleagues you feel inspired by. Talk about plans for the future. Riff on eachother’s ideas. When something seems interesting to a group of you, take some time to build it out as a fun experiment or hobby. Think of these as play not work. At some point one of these hobbies will inevitably find an audience and get some traction. You’ll know it’s right when you and your “cofounders” — though if you’re doing it right you won’t even think of each other that way yet — can’t stop thinking about it and working on it feels invigorating not exhausting. Once you’re there the path to creating a business will get a lot clearer. But trying to get there on your own, while not impossible, is very lonely and very hard.