I don't think I dispute anything you say. I deeply recognize the existential isolation you expressed so well. I approached this experiment from the perspective that these models were interesting and possibly useful tools in this (possibly foolish, but most definitely Sisyphean) endeavor, not as shepherds guiding me on the road to self-understanding.
trade "sisyphyean" for iterating and it becomes just a task that you get better at.....and in no way can resent or are burdend by
I believe that all effort serves the species, and that all species serve life...,or fail...our burden/blessing is awareness of the last
Story time: in the collerado rocky mountanins there are found river boulders high up.on mountain sides, and even sometimes on peaks, no exact evidence exists to explain there presence, but the only plausable scenario is that teams of humans gathered to roll these large stones, UP the mountain....must have been a hellava good time, every inch, a triumph, with spectacular losses sometimes, but for some lost culture, it was a generational quest and testament to there strength , cohesion, and persistance
I don't think I dispute anything you say. I deeply recognize the existential isolation you expressed so well. I approached this experiment from the perspective that these models were interesting and possibly useful tools in this (possibly foolish, but most definitely Sisyphean) endeavor, not as shepherds guiding me on the road to self-understanding.