You're probably right. My anxiety at home even manifests as eczema, such that it completely disappears when I'm traveling but reoccurs the day before I fly home.
It might just be fear of upsetting the balance that home life provides even if you tend to gravitate towards the organized chaos to which you've become accustomed.
That makes sense. Much of my anxiety is just remnants of some real bad shit I went through four years ago. Part of my reluctance towards getting close to people is a fear that I'll fall into the same situation I was in back then.
